Me and My thoughts!

Things I want.

2009-05-07T11:23:33Z

chocolatekate @ 2008-02-19T14:48:00

2008-02-19T15:07:03Z

I have a craving for LiveJournal today. For the first time in a long time. I dont know if this is good or bad.

Kate Haley is an indie fool.
Kate Haley is happy she got a bursary.
Kate Haley Loves Juno.
Kate Haley : Money + Music = Happy Kate.
Kate Haley can't wait for CD's to be obsolete.
Kate Haley is covered in tomato Soup.
Kate Haley loves Soup and Bagels.
Kate Haley...

Facebook status' is how we define our mood now? Glad they got rid of the permanant 'is', but everyone still uses it unless they try extra hard to think of self descriptive words. The whole refering to yourself in third person is still creepy.

I got a bursary today, £750 bamm into my account, which i dont have to pay back! Awesome. So to celebrate i went out and spent £50 on CD's

Juno [Soundtrack]
Belle&Sebastian
The Shins
Of Montreal
OK GO

In a very indie mood right now, probably caused the spout of LiveJournalism.

Oh, and I bought the one copy of DAZED&confused they stock in premier oppisite my halls, just to complete it all.

I saw Juno yesterday, and it was an amazing love story, and the soundtrack is awesomely amazing. Its just the sweetest Love Song Mix Tape you could make, however cool and pretentionsly indie you are. (ps. i know how ironic this is)

This morning I walked to uni with my boyfriend, we had breakfast and dramatically kissed goodbye, they way we do whenever we meet or part. I like it, although yes it does gross me out when ever anyone else does it. Sure, we hve established im a complete hipocrite. One that can't spell too.

The on to my seminar, we were condisendingly taught dreamweaver, again. And set a group project for next week, should be piss. Piss easy, thats what we like with this module.

The other module is alot harder, and im working, or not-so-working with idiot girls. Oh well.

I have to wash my hair, and shave my legs before my boyfriend picks me up.

So. Go watch Juno, get the soundtrack, and eat soup. Tomato and Basil Soup, with a bagel, followed by those scruptious Go Ahead Yogurt bars. Tasty Luncheon.

x

One year on: The time i never talk about, but always think about.

2007-12-05T10:55:13Z

Tuesday was one year on from when i travelled to the phillippines with my friend Sophie. It was an experience i knew would change my life, but not quite in the way it did. I thought it would be a very positive experience in my life, when infact it wasnt. It shattered my spirit, my soul and i forgot how to be me. I was out there for a month over chirstmas and new years. My time out there was spent following a catholic missionary from the south wealthy part of the country to the north even more poverty stricken, mountainus reigion of the country. We met some amazing people, and saw alot of poverty and saddness, curruption and wrongness i didnt expect to see, and wasnt ready, mentaly to see. I also did something wrong, and i dont know why i did it. I was unaware of the extreme consequences my actions would incurr. When i was in the phillippines, i felt i wasnt myself. This maybe because i was in a place so removed from my usual surroundings i didnt know who to be. I always thought i was pretty strong on who i was, but when i went there i clearly wasnt. The woman we were there with, Nickie, also didnt help matters for me. As our closest link to home, and the closest thing i had to a mother, i think i relied on her to much to tell me what to do, when i should of been independent, because we wasnt nice to me. I felt put down by her, and ridiculed for who i was. She didnt seem to like me in the slightest, and would always bring things up, like my religion being Christia, Church of England, and my dad being a priest. I dont know if this was just a joke, but it was really spitefull, and hurt me alot. Im not sure if she was aware of how much she was acting like a child. I also wonder if the "rebel" inside of me had come out. I have alwas been so good, i never got in trouble, i never did anything very naughty, i didnt break the law, i was a bit of a goodytwoshoes. I still am i guess. But looking bad, what i did wouldnt of been THAT bad here. Where i love, in my culture... infact no one would of blinked an eyelid. And thats what affected me so much. I couldnt handel and i couldnt understand the culture out there. I shouldnt of even got involded and i know that now, and if i could change it all i would. I often debate wether if i couldnt turn back time with the knowledge i have now, if i should of even gone. I think i would go. but do alot of things differently. I wouldnt of lost my best friends, and i wouldnt of got involded with someone i shouldnt, because i hurt alot more important people than me, and alot more people than i ever intended. Its a mistake which cost me dearly. A mistake that pretty much ruined the past year of my life. A year which i will never get back. I was so depressed after i got back to england, i couldnt eat for a while. I cried myself to sleep every night for a good few months. I lost contact with my best friend, which i will always regret, and i will never forgive myself, and never forget what happened out in the Phillippines.

It affected me so much, i dont know who i am anymore. Im still quite depressed, even though you wouldnt think it with the facade i put on to cover my true feelings. I cant talk about my feelings with out crying, and i cant let anyone in anymore. I used to be quite an open book, and i am still with the things that dont matter but with the things that do, i cant talk about. This is the first time i have spoken about them. I had a little converstion with Will, my flat mate. I think i just scared him. But he was there for me. I wish i could make close friends, because i dont feel i have any, and that is one of my main regrets in life.

One year on i have come to terms with my actions and what happened in the Phillippines. I have learnt to look at the positive things i experienced out there, and look at all the good, fun things i did rather than focus on the one bad thing which ruined it all. I am getting better at making friends, getting less depressed and everything as time goes on. I am moving on with my life, and its moving fast. I have been trying to move on from december last year for thish whole year. Maybe today, on this landmark, around the same time last year as i was setting foot in Manilia airport, i can.

6 weeks in the sun.

2007-09-04T10:52:23Z

Wow. Six weeks in the sun really takes its toll...!

I love that photo. Its ashame mike wasn't there.

Ive had the most brilliant summer, ive seen so many amazing things, met the most brilliant people, learnt the most wonderfull things.
Its been pretty awesome!

Best bits is all i really have timefore:

Prague:
Leg getting infected, not being able to walk.
the lake,
5 floor club,
Ujezd (you jized)
bone church
absynth (nonono)
Helena, Mila, Yananana
Will
Lyndsey, Maxine
(matt)
Sweeds

Krakow:
HOSTEL YELLOW! (best hostel ever)
Kasia
My birthday (train ride, party, clubs...canadians)
Salt Mines,
Auscwitz,
Polish Food!
Polish Vodka
"Im so drunk i could get on a bus"
"Yesterday was deep, Today was raw, (Tomorrow will be chung)"

Bratislava:
MEETING TIM AND JOELLE
Waving at buses
Crackden "hostel"
Cocktail Bar/iCafe/Coffee Shop with HUGE straws
Slovak Pub
"Where the fuck is Bratislava?"

Budapest:
"Hungarian Joe"
"Do you know Hungarian Joe?"
The Roman Baths (!!!)
The Posh Girls
The Finnish dudes
Mike sold me for 2 forients (0.02p)
The outdoor nightclub, and dancing till the sun came up

Ljubliana:
Azur Pizzaria
The Skeleton Bar
THAT NIGHT
Thrown off buses
Punches
Thrown in bushes
No Money.

Lake Bohinj:
AMAZING
Mountains
Kiaking
Canoning
AMAZING

Pula:
Shit hostel
Lady stole our key
Amazing beach day
All Day Internet Day Gr.
HOT
Bye Tim and Joelle!

Zagreb:
Bye Tom and Dan
Rain but Hot
Great Hostel
Sweeds
Films
Drunk day/Rain day
Not much to do, Pretty tho.

Zadar:
French Kids
V Pretty
Lovely Lovely Sea
Germans
Ferries
Bye Mike

Ancona:
Random Pizza
No English Reception
Lots of auzzies!
Wrong trains...

Rosalina:
Hello Mum, Dan an Ben
Nice boat.
YOU BROKE-A MY BOAT!

Venice:
So beautiful
Too expensive

Rome:
Too hot
Too busy
Too touristy
Rude Hotel
YAY HOME NOW!

England:
Amazed Me.

Wish me luck!!!

2007-07-04T19:10:12Z

Today is my first day off in 9 days, and they are full 12+ hour working days! Seriously! So its been a really nice day too :-D!

I got up at a more reasonable time of day than usual! Had a very leasurly shower, and went and met Matt to go see Shrek the Third at the new cinema in the dome! Found out later i was in the same room/dome as justin Timberlake! Haha! He has there a gig there tonight.

The cinema was very funny bought about a ton of popcorn and didnt even eat a quarter of it! And that include popcorn fights!!!! Hahah! Funny stuff!

now i have a nice relaxing night too look forward too, before my DRIVEing TEST tomorrrow!!! eeeek! Its V early too which is why i neeeeeed the rest! But im starting to get really nervous, silly and anxious, and its only 8pm!

Ahhh! I reaaaaaaaally hope i pass as well! It would SUCK if i didn't!

Oh yeah! Yesterday was a good day too! I had work, with an insert of shopping (where i found that lepoard print undwear ive always wanted AnD in my size!!!) Work was jokes! Sophie was there in the evening too, so we got to have a walk to liverpool st, with a good gossip and a natter which was really nice! Still got home at a reasonable hour as well!

Im feeling really really positive lately. Things are really starting to pick up for me! I leave work next friday, i go away for TWO months, next next monday, I start Uni in september, i already know my room number! All very exciting! Driving test tomooooooorrroow! SO yeah, Its really good right now! Alot to look forward too, and not too mush to miss or regret! :-D

I hope it lasts....

Pros and Cons of my life

2007-06-26T15:51:20Z

Listening to music loud through big headphones.
Saying thank you to bus drivers.
Traffic.
Vodka and RedBull but not RedBull on its own
Long Journeys.
Big Curls on boys.
And girls
The Enemy
Money £$€
Asking for the The London Paper
Colourful Trainer Shoes
Ice
242, 38, 55, 106, 48
Cheap Sun Glasses
Get Cape,
Wear Cape,
Fly.
Wishing.
Lists.
Leggins.
Diet Cola
Brothers Strawberry Cider
People doing silly things when they think i can't see,
so i can secretly laugh with them from afar.
Pondering
When no one sits next to be on the bus
Driving
Europe Tours
Organisation
Shopping for things i actually need
Cheap Phone Contracts.
Gold
Primark Accessories
Garlic Mayonaise
Marks and Spenser Salad
Mare Street Shopping Trips

NEW JOURNAL!!!!

2007-06-09T18:03:09Z

As it says.

Hopefully i will carry it off.

A photo of each day/week summerising happened that day.

Lets hope my days are interesting enough.

add me lovelies

x

snapme

In an all Sound of Music fashion, "These are a few of my..." or not

2007-06-01T13:33:59Z

Diet Cherry Coke

Big Gold Hoop Earrings

My Bike

Bling

Gold Eye Shadow

Black Eyeliner

Ugly Betty

Leopard Print Hair Bands

Pay Day

Green & Blacks Ice Cream

Primark

Cancer Research Race for Life

Marks & Spenser Salad

Garlic Mayo

Almost Holiday

GÚ

Driving

x

Rain

Big Brother

Writing emails

[No E4Music]

Driving

My Music Collection

My Laptop

Phone Calls

Dads

Over tired

TAX!!!!

chocolatekate @ 2007-05-30T10:52:00

2007-05-30T10:46:50Z

Im surprised I haven't been on here more, writing my self-loathing, self-hatrid comments, seeing as i have been so self obsessed the past... 6 months.
I think I have finally realised whats the problem with me right now.
I haven't been able to be myself, let the real Kate out.
I think what happened in the philippines made me so self concious, and self aware, i was scared stiff about what other people now think of me, every little thing, i feel people are judging me, like they actually care.
So i stopped doing everything.
So I wouldnt be judged.
I have become so self aware, and self concious, self loathing, i have no self esteem, broken in to bits.
Hiding away from the world, in my shell, a complete intovert, when before, i considered myself to be extravert.

Im an extravert hiding by the sheid of an introvert!

I need to stop this.

So from now on i am going to do my best to come out of the shell.
Do what i like, how i like, say what i want, how i want.
Because i have had a few glimpes like that, how i was, and they have been the best few moments of the past 6 months, and i can probably count them on one hand.

So here i pledge to myself, to stop caring about how other people see me, GET OVER MYSELF, and get on with it.

Because there is no point being misrable.
I dont like it.

This is so much easier said than done.
My I will give it a shot.

Hes a bastard

2007-05-21T12:48:23Z

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chocolatekate @ 2007-04-11T21:56:00

2007-04-11T21:16:58Z

So things are on the up!

Crazy shizzle happening with boys. Im not going to bother typing about it.

I had a hair cut. Looks buffness.

Dans back! yay!

Had a wicked weekend, Mikes birthday + Crimes Against pop. I bought one drink all night and there is alot i cannot remember, yay for free drinks. And photos to remind me what happened! Which all turnt out great and helarious!!!!

My interview for Coventry is one week TODAY. Booked my trains today.

I got a letter today from Camberwell. I got an interview!!!!

Major! And i have my Theory test on thr 30th! Woop! I cant wait to pass that, driving is so much fun and life will be so much easier once i get rid of my L plates!

These things are making me happy right now

BarryM make up + free lip gloss!
Camberwell!
Cyber Candy Retro Sweets!
(paul)
Photos
Pencils
Portugese

Time for photos of latelynes:

Me and Mario are too BUFF

the nepalese

Nu Endz

Me

Nu Space

chocolatekate @ 2007-04-01T14:51:00

2007-04-01T13:52:17Z

Shit Balls.

chocolatekate @ 2007-03-31T13:01:00

2007-03-31T12:05:06Z

I've lost my other best friend now.

chocolatekate @ 2007-03-28T11:33:00

2007-03-28T10:47:34Z

Um. March isn't too much better, but the complete waver in weather from week to week is quite amusing!

I went to see TMNT last night with mycool, which was good! I l.o.v.e Michaelangelo! Hes obviously the best ninja turtle there ever could be.

Duuuude!

Also, in other news, i got an Interview at Coventry Uni! WoopWoop!

So i hope that goes well, and also gives me a few days off to spend with my good friend Mycool and party it up student styleey!

So i better go get my portfolio up to scratch, quick-sharpe!

I swore when i woke up this morning it was a sunday.

x x x

chocolatekate @ 2007-03-28T11:32:00

2007-03-28T10:33:02Z

Prague: 16th-23rd July
Bratislava and Vienna: 23rd-28th July
Budapest: 28th-3rd August
Zagreb: 3rd-6th August
Ljubljana: 6th-8th August
Lake Bled or Bovek(in the alps for watersports, rafting,ect) 8th-10th August
Rijeka and island hopping south along the Dalmation coast: 10th-16th August
Dubrovnic: 16th-19th August
Bari: 20th-when the flight home from italy leaves.

W A N T T O C O M E W I T H M E ?

M E S S A G E M E T H E N

chocolatekate @ 2007-02-13T18:18:00

2007-02-13T18:19:59Z

I forgot Febuary is the worst month of the year.

Always is, every year.

Never lets me down.

Ugh.

Finland. Minus Twenty.

2007-02-12T22:03:17Z

Tampere:

E3 REPRESENT BLAP BLAP BLAP!

Moomin Museum:

Lenin Museum:

Winter:

Observation:

Dans Endz:

Snow Walks at Sunset:

COLD:

Absynth:

More Booze:

Absynth Fuled, Comunist Lighter of the Future:

Potato Salad.

Michael found himself a souvinier:

Dan Drinks and Sleeps:

Knee Deep:

Um Sausage:

Ms Snowman 2008:

Beach Wear:

Hobbies:

Evening Wear:

Casual Wear:

Special Talent:

Base Camp:

What do Veggies eat in the forest, BBQ Orange of course:

Names:

My Bed in the Airport for 16 hours:

Dans Flat

Fo' Fun

chocolatekate @ 2007-02-09T14:32:00

2007-02-09T12:32:52Z

FINLANDIAAAA!

:-)

Some Photos and Words.

2007-01-18T11:32:57Z

I applied to uni. I REALLY hope i get in. eeeeeekk.

Im going to finland, I will book my flights today.

Im buying a Digital SLR as soon as i get my inheritance money, once the sale of the house goes through.

I need to choose paint colour for my new bedroom.

Moving day: 27th Febuary 2007.

x x x

ReadingTwoThousandAndSix

2006-11-27T00:18:13Z

Max Ponders Sky

Sophie Still

Sophie Dance

Dark Sophie

Sophie with Liz

Fire

~~!Blank~~, Two, Three, Four!

chocolatekate @ 2006-11-13T10:01:00

2006-11-13T10:01:29Z

I watched like 10 episodes of Neighbours yesterday. It was most enjoyable!

I had a good weekend, despite missing my coach to coventry to go and visit michael.

21 Days
till we go.

I have so much to do!

Going to get my Visa tomorrow, then i have another jab to get, i need a haircut, a backpack (!), a leg wax (!), i need summery clothes, face paint, presents, an advent calender, all sorts of things that i cant even think of because its too early!

exciting!

chocolatekate @ 2006-10-29T20:08:00

2006-10-29T20:11:58Z

chocolatekate @ 2006-10-26T20:49:00

2006-10-26T19:50:22Z

So going on a diet tomorrow.

Or at least im not eating anything till i devise a diet for me.

x

"Nick Berry had talent in a previous life..."

2006-10-19T22:56:27Z

No update in ages, and now like a million in a few days.
dont get used to it.
x

chocolatekate @ 2006-10-18T11:40:00

2006-10-18T10:41:04Z